i really dont get how my head works…

i’m mad at you for throwing me away when things got tricky in life
but i also understand why you did it

i don’t hate you, infact i hate myself for letting my emotions get the better of me too many times. and all i did was hurt you

but then i see that you’re upset, and every cell in my body wants to help and comfort you, just like before

why?
why do i still feel so strongly for you?

am i an idiot?
am i stubborn?
am i hopeless?
maybe i’m just a stupid child who can’t let go

i don’t know
but i still care for you, that much is obvious to me

i just wish it was possible to fix everything, go back to how we were

but i don’t think you even like me anymore, let alone have any scrap of feelings left for me

and even if by some miricle, you wanted me back

i ask myself

should i?

i want to, more than anything
but the fact that i was so easy for you to cut out of your life
is it right?

how would i know it wouldnt happen again?

one thing i’ve learnt, talking is key

couples need to talk, about nothing, about everything. issues or feelings that are good or bad need to be talked about

i keep wondering, if you had talked to me before all this happened, would the outcome be different?

i’m sorry i’ve been such a pain. i’m not trying to make you feel bad, or guilt trip you into taking me back as some people seem to think

i was so sure that we had something perfect that even when your personality started shifting and i asked you about it, i would believe what you told me

i trusted you

i’m a naive child. trapped in a teenagers body. the world scares me. 
but everything seemed better during that time

i’m so confused and no matter how hard i try you keep jumping inside my head

i’m so sorry. for everything i’ve done wrong or misunderstood
i’m sorry i couldnt make you happy

i really am hopeless at this…

joshwilkinson97

falloutnovelli:

vikingsrph:

I AM ALLOWED TO COMPLAIN

I AM ALLOWED TO CRY OVER SIMPLE THINGS

I AM FULLY AWARE THAT OTHER PEOPLE HAVE PROBLEMS TOO AND THEY ARE PROBABLY WORSE OFF THAN I AM

DO NOT REMIND ME OF THAT WHEN I AM UPSET

MY FEELINGS ARE VALID

I AM ALLOWED TO COMPLAIN

WHAT IS SIMPLE TO YOU COULD BE STRESSFUL TO ME

STOP TELLING ME TO THINK ABOUT PEOPLE THAT HAVE IT WORSE

STOP STOP STOP

THIS IS IMPORTANT

Shit, I fucked up
I slept for 12 hours… (3-3)

And I tried to help
But you don’t want to talk to me

Of course you don’t
I’ve fucked up so many times that I’m probably a piece of shit to you now

Wow, I fucking suck at life

I’m so so sorry

I’ll probably post some really deep bullshit thing later too
I do not feel great today

Old wounds have become fresh
Hurray -.-

benedictstardis
arrogantanupapaya:

everythingsbetterwithbisexuals:

overtheadriatic:

sadisticbrit:

peter capaldi is a blessing on this world

Oh god I was so worried about this too

The more he talks about this upcoming season and the stuff he won’t put up with, the more I’m starting to believe he killed Steven Moffat and keeps telling everyone he’s on vacation while writing all his episodes himself.

that is brilliant news what are you talking about

arrogantanupapaya:

everythingsbetterwithbisexuals:

overtheadriatic:

sadisticbrit:

peter capaldi is a blessing on this world

Oh god I was so worried about this too

The more he talks about this upcoming season and the stuff he won’t put up with, the more I’m starting to believe he killed Steven Moffat and keeps telling everyone he’s on vacation while writing all his episodes himself.

that is brilliant news what are you talking about